2006

*Originally posted on MySpace on
Tuesday, January 02, 2007

2006
Current mood: excited
Category: Religion and Philosophy

2006 was the BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!!! Not for the reasons one might expect though. Not cause i got a new job making 175K/year [though i know that soon money won’t be a problem for me]; not cause i met the finest, baddest, most sanctified, woman of my dreams [and God is doing things in that area as well]- i actually started 2006 with a girl and ended it without a girl ; not cause i accomplished one of my goals of workin out regularly, and am now chisled beyond measure lol. Matter of fact for the 1st time ever i spent CHRISTmas and New Years away from family. But 2006 was by far the best year of my life because my relationship with God has gotten bout 1,000 times stronger this year. I never heard God’s voice as clearly and as often as i did in 2006. I never read the Bible as much as I did in 06, i never prayed or fasted as much as i did in 06. Can you believe that i called my very first personal 21 day consecration in 06?!?!? And the focus wasn’t to get me back in school or to get financial blessings or a girl [clearly not for a girl haha], but one day i realized that i wanted a better, deeper relationship with God, and that i didn’t wanna wait for our annual January consecration, nor could i afford to wait til January. No hidden agendas or nothing. In 06 i started to realize the authority that I have because of who i am in God. I truly realized in 06 the ABSOLUTE POWER that i have in my tongue. I would speak something, and almost immediately the devil would attack what i spoke. On one occassion within 48 hrs he began attacking what i said, and another time it was maybe 24 hours before he started attacking what i said. And i know why he attacked what i said…because when God tells you something or has you to speak prophetically concerning a situation, satan’s #1 objective becomes to make it look like what God has spoken to you or through you won’t come to pass…BUT THE DEVIL IS A LIAR! What GOD has spoken has no choice but to come to pass! If GOD said it, HE’s gonna do it! HIS WORD absolutely, positively, without doubt CANNOT return to HIM void! Impossible. IMPOSSIBLE! Pastor Simmons at Love and Faith said 2006 is your reference year. That year you look back on and say all these blessings that i have now started in 2006. Truly 2006 was my reference year, and that what’s made this the best year of my life. Be blessed, Luv Ya’ll!!!

Oh yeah, 2007? Every round goes HIGHER AND HIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGHHHEEEEEERRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW??

How can you feel pain and hope at the same time?
How can you long for the past and still yearn for the future, while somewhat despising your present?
How can you expect greater than what you had, when you saw nothing wrong with what you had?
How can you expect greater than what you had, when what you had FAR exceeds what you ever wanted?
How can you settle for LESS than what you had, even though less than what you had could still be wonderful?
How can you patiently wait for something, when you already had it?
How can you NOT discard what may be next, the moment you realize it is inferior to what was before?
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I do
I do
I do
I do
I won’t
I will
I don’t know

Dear God

*Originally posted on MySpace on
Thursday, November 02, 2006*

Dear God
Current mood: thankful
Category: Religion and Philosophy

Dear God,

First things first – LORD JESUS You are worthy of all glory and all praise. All honor belongs to You. You are the LORD – strong and mighty, mighty in battle. Your kingdom is from everlasting to everlasting, and of Your throne there will be no end. You alone are KING of kings and LORD of lords.

GOD, I have to thank You for all that You’ve done for me. Thank You for saving my soul. Thank You for loosing the chains that were on my mind, body, and soul…chains of lust, chains of poverty, chains of low self esteem. Thank You for loving me enough to live inside of me. Thank You so much for dying for me. While I was still in my sins You died for me…Man, I love You so much! I ain’t never had nobody treat me the way You do. You are too good to be true, yet You are Truth. But Your awesomeness does not hinge on what You’ve done. If You decided to never save me, You’d still be worthy of my praise. If You never died for my sins, You’d still be KING of kings. And if You never do nothing else for me, you’ll still be perfect, just, and righteous. If I never graduate, You’ll still be holy. If I never ever EVER get married, there will still be NONE LIKE YOU!!! If I never make more than $30k a year I’ll still bless You at all times, my knee will still bow to You, and I will always confess that You are LORD of all! If you count me worthy to be persecuted for Your Name’s sake, with my last breath I’ll say, ‘LORD, You’ve been so good to me.’ LORD I love You. I can’t make it, unless I lean on You. I’m so glad Your strength is made perfect in my weakness. PLEASE be pleased with my life, my sacrifice, and my praise. More than my necessary food, LORD – I NEED YOU!!

In Humble Submissiveness and Love,

Your Son – Franco

Richard Smallwood – Thank You

For the many times I’ve fallen
yet you forgave me
Thank you, Lord I thank you
For unmerited favor, and your brand new mercies
Thank you, How I thank you
For waking me up this morning
For letting me see one more dawning
Thank you, Lord I thank you
I thank you lord

For life, health, and strength
For food and for shelter Thank you
Lord I thank you
If I had ten thousand tongues
It just wouldn’t be enough to say
Thank you, How I thank you
For waking me up this morning
For letting me see one more dawning
Thank you, Lord I thank you
I thank you lord

For saving my soul, for making me whole
For calming my fears, for wiping my tears
And letting me know that I’m not alone
For wakin’ me up this morning
For letting me see one more dawning
Thank You, I thank You, Lord!

I was sinking deep down in sin, far from the peaceful shore (Thank you)
Very deeply, deeply, deeply stained within, sinking to rise no more (Thank You)

But the Master of the sea, He heard my despairing cry (Thank You)

From the waters, from the waters, from the waters, He lifted me!